Ive been secretly holding out hope that because waw wasn't moving things out of our house, that she was maybe thinking about coming back. It's what happened the first time.
When we reconciled, I told her that her moving all her stuff out of my house, would have been symbolic that we were over. She said she knew that and that's why she didn't come get everything.
I spent the weekend at my parents house and stopped by our house after work today. D8's room is completely cleaned out. I felt like I'd been sucker punched. It knocked the wind out of me.
I guess it's real this time. I drove back to my parents house a MESS.
I'd been holding out hope that WAW would see that being apart from me, wasn't the answer. That she would miss me too much. She would realize that I'm the guy for her. Clearly that's not the case.
This feels like another bomb. I stupidly held on to hope and now I'm paying for it.
The finality of it stings so bad. All the memories come flooding back.
I feel heartbroken all over again.
Really ??? .......... bonehead
Truth is...
You are looking for a sign from her, some sort of scrap so that you can keep holding on, or having hope....
Hope comes from the inside of yourself, not from some external sign from the Pope, or Bigfoot...
"Oh, if she picks her left nostril, she still loves me"
It doesn't work that way...
And when you try to make it work that way, all it is, is you giving yourself permission to just sit around and wait on her, watch what she does, FB stalk her....
So what if she picks her left nostril ??
How does that affect YOU, and your chance to find yourself ?
So what if she is giving the Geico Caveman a bikini wax today ??
How should that affect any work that you NEED to do for yourself ??
You have to stop holding her accountable, for the choices that you are making.
Hope....
That comes from inside of you buddy, nobody else can give you that, nor can anyone take that away from you...
