Not sure why it is so tough. While working hard to GAL, I allow my emotions and heart to race on her every move! Very, very frustrating.

In all honestly...I know that I can/could survive (and maybe eventually thrive) without her...but it is heartbreaking. So tough to be told you aren't wanted any more. I have always considered myself pretty confident and assertive...now I feel totally codependant and needy.

I'm fighting those feelings and working on 'acting as if'. Done a really good job the last 3-4 weeks....just [censored] to have my heart start racing every time she is around.

Will get there!

Last edited by Cadet; 03/04/16 05:07 AM.
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