You now know you are being abused, your mind knows (spell break) but your heart does not want to accept it.
Unfortunately this is reality of your life now.
That is an indicator of abuse, being a target. If the abuse is in your WH personality this won't change in the longer term unless WH has long term serious therapy and commits himself to this.
Your sitch is different to mine although we have one thing in common a destructive abusive WH. It is my opinion that IRL those of us in abuse sitches need additional support. Most targets of abuse take 5 or 6 serious abuse incidents to leave their abuser. Each time the abuser starts a new cycle of abuse which is a sweet cycle.
You have two children involved in this too, it can be damaging for them to see their mother being treated this way.
DB in this circumstances is for you to rebuild you so that you can grow into your life. You disclosed your father was also abusive and alcoholic so there is much work for you to do. So that your choices are healthy for the future.
You have choices in this of course and you don't need to do anything you don't want to do.
Be safe
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
