Just got back from the gym. It was nice but thinking about H. Wondering what he's thinking and what he's saying about us to people. Last time I saw him, he said, "I will always love you and I've never fell in love with anyone the way I fell in love with you." Just frustrating I guess. How he can just ran away off into his new life, happy as a clam. And the family/friends act as if we never existed. I guess this is the new interaction I will have with these people going forward right?
Just feeling indifferent, frustrated, then up, then down, then up again the past few days. Someone got on my nerves today at work and I lost my cool for a nanosecond, which I never do. I don't know whats going on with me.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
