surrealism is not my style

[ciluzen]

Cil, I know how you feel. In my Rebuilding group I'm the one for whom this is most raw. Like Thornton said, you are still DBing and you may turn this around. Keep working on your marriage. Have positive interactions with H. It will keep him guessing. But hold tight to your boundaries, too. Be strong.

Thanks for stopping by NYGal. I'm trying to be strong. I can't get past all of the losses; family, friends, house, lifestyle...especially H. Its almost like he doesn't believe he COULD be loved by me, or anyone, for that matter. I'm really having a hard time with why he holds on so strongly to this idea. I will continue to have positive interactions, but it is tearing me up emotionally. I'm tired and only hope I can stay stronger than I feel.