Please listen and consider the advice that you've been given, especially from Wonka. You are in an abusive situation, i.e., emotional and mental. No one should have to put up w/the bs that you are at this time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
