Wonka,V- no..not really okay. I'm at my moms with my kids. All I want to do is find a way to get him to change back to his normal self and come home..and I know I cant and he isnt and I'm just emotional. No amount is 180 or db is going to help me is it??
Today this is a full run down: He called when he was behind me driving super slow.
S3 wokeup from nap said daddy was driving to game store and we call and you no talk. Why you no talk to me mommy? I told him that I was driving silly.
I ignored his calls then..because I was on the phone anyways and driving.
Got his mean text later about not answering his calls.
Answered to have him say I'm so annoyed and angry that Idk why I called.
Came home,he ignored me. Talked to OW and told friends how hot new gf was. Told him not to talk about or too her while in the house. He said fine whatever wont happen again in a douchebag voice and shooed me away.
I went and laid down and pretended to sleep.
When he decided to leave he went into the room and dumped his clothes I didnt fold onto the bed where I'm laying. Found his outfit left a mess all over the bed. He also picked out an extra outfit.
He was walking to the door. Knowing he was leaving a huge mess for me again I snapped.
H: rubbed my arm and said he was leaving and would be back tomorrow.
Me:pick your sh't off the bed
H:oooh someone is pissy. Why are you so pissy? Why are you acting so weird.
Turns on bedroom light, turns on all the lamps and point them at me.
Me:stop its blinding me.
I open my eyes and he is smiling at me doing a retarded dance.
Of course I smile at his silly goofy self.
Which makes me frustrated that he can get me to smile so easily.
Me:get your sh't off the bed
H: its not sh't..i see no sh't ..i see clothes. You want me to pick up my clothes..okay I'll clean my clothes..half amused cleans bed off.
H tosses throw blanket at my face And it lands on my head
Me:really h
H: ooo let me fix that..
Tried tucking me into bed.
I threw the covers off. I got out of bed.
H: so pissy..pissy pants. Why so pissy and tried to poke me.
I walk to Living room
H: i thought you wanted to rest and nap and its why you didnt want to hangout with me
Me:.... Didnt say anything
H: can you get the door for me?
I open the door..follow him outside for mail.
H: any mail?
Me:no
Throw away junk mail. He waits to see if i will hug him.
H: I will be back tomorrow. Leaves for ow house.
No hugging him. Walked opposite direction into house. Shut door. Opened blinds. Sat on couch.
Cried because I just want his stupid self to go away and bring back the old nice him.
Went to my moms and now frustrated and angry.
I miss us. I miss how good it was. I miss my little family. I miss feeling that he loved me. I miss my life.
