Yep, I know you and Wonka are right.

I don't know why I do this to myself. Like I said, it makes sense to me. But I get comfortable and resort to old familiar patterns.

It feels like it happens subconciously. I don't sit and think, "hey I think I'll start falling back on codependent patterns today".

I slowly fall back into those patterns and by the time I realize it, Im getting a ILYBINILWY speech.

I do need to get comfortable on my own. I'm going to start thinking of some of my goals and will have some updates soon.