I hear you. WAW taught me lots of new things too and opened my eyes to culture, music, and the arts.
Growth is painful ain't it? But it's necessary. I resist it as much as I can but I'm slowly surrendering to what will be.
I hate FEAR. And I feel fear when I don't know what the future holds. Ive had some traumatic things happen in my life so I can be a bit of a pessimist.
I'm trying to convince myself that the worst has already happened. What can be worse that this? And if this is the worst of it, what else is there to fear?