But if you search yourself there must be something that interests you outside the relationship, whether it is a sport, hobby, art or music. What were you into before your R?
This is funny b/c I don't want to go back to the way I used to live before I met H. Life was pretty tough for me then, and H came and it was like the sun finally shined big and brightly and I could conquer the world and reach all of my goals. Lol, this sounds so bad and codependent, I know and trust me, I'm working on it. H doesn't define my happiness, I do!
But anyway, Thornton, saying all of that to say, I'm looking at this as a chance to redefine the older, more mature me that has been through some crap and has no reason to fake the funk any longer with anyone about anything. H introduced me to alot of things and a way of life that I don't think I can imagine my life without anymore. So I'm finding ways to tweak those things to make them my own while infusing a little bit of the old me pre-H back into the mix. Part of that, I don't think I've ever lost - I've always been pretty funny and it sounds like you are too ;-).
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
