Divorce Papers

[TimR]

More dreams again, I can't really remember what these were but must not have been good cause again woke in the middle of the night about to break down.

Then when the alarm went off, I awoke feeling some kind of indifference. On the way to work heard the anthem for all LBH of WW and WAWs... Asia - Only Time Can Tell. Don't judge me I am old and like the 80s channel. At least I am no longer listening to Boyz 2 Men - End of the Road.

So work has been ok, I spend a lot of time on this board which maybe I should not.

Then a post my MIL to her "For TR you know who you are. My daughter's loser husband" The quote "The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman's love with no intention of loving her." I am sad and angry all at once. First I am convinced there is a special place in he11 for a MIL who encourages their D to cheat and walk away from a marriage. Second, how can anyone say I do not or did not love my W! If the pain I feel is not for love lost, I would hate to see what that feels like. If my efforts are not from love then where do they come from. How could I love anymore and where does this sense of me not loving come from! ARGH!!!

Today is going to be a great day, today is going to be a great day....