Hi Red. Sorry to hear things turned this way. Everyone is giving you some good advice. For my part I'd say three things:

Work harder on detaching. Harder than you have before. Your H is not someone lovable at all right now. Use that to help you move forward. And don't stalk. It will only make it hurt worse. Trust me, I know this personally.

Follow V's advice on protecting yourself and your kids. Everything you do is to that end at this time.

Put firm boundaries in place, even when it hurts. It was never easy for me, and W gave a lot of fire back in response. However, it needed to be done, and I always felt much more secure after all was said and done.

You've got this.

M: 8.5 T:10
Me:37 W:34 S:6

Retrouvaille and W moves back- 7/31/15
Piecing - 7/4/15 to present