I know exactly how you feel. I had those moments of missing XH terribly at first as well. I have read up on your sitch and, like mine, yours moved very quickly and it is hard to come to terms with it all so quickly. My timeline is about a year ahead of yours and I can tell you that the first few months after the D was final were the worst for me. I was so depressed that I sought counseling. It was the best thing I could've done.
It took me another few months to get past the anger I felt for XH because I just think he's a lying sack of crap, quite frankly. But, now, a little over year out from the D being final, I'm feeling back to my old self and ready to tackle the world and maybe even share some time with a nice, single gentleman again.
Trust me when I say it does get better. I am living proof. If I could offer one piece of advice that seems obvious, take care of yourself. I noticed that you had no kids which may be a blessing in a way. It will allow you to focus on you and not have to deal with your XW as much. Focus on you and doing what you want and like.
Good luck!
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids
