have i been making mistakes too long part 7

[tkdmme]

Damn this roller coaster. I know im not alone in my struggle but I feel so alone. I thought the worst was over and then right back in the funk again.
I cant imagine how im going to make it through this. I know that people do it all the time but I don't think im strong enough. My work is very demanding and stressful and now I go home to a shell of a house with nobody home. I have no one to talk to except the dog and she doesn't speak English lol.

Will I make it?

Will I every feel joy again?

Will I ever be able to wake up and say "today is going to be a good day?

I look forward to nothing. Everything I do is draped in heavy failure. I think people can smell it on me.

Im afraid that if I don't pull it together soon, im going to loose my job. I have already lost my mind.

At this point I just want her to take the kids and raise them and let me run away.

So depressed today. God help me..