more thinking over the course of today...

Has what i thought were part of my 180 resource kit actually been me being a door mat?

Has what i thought was detachment implied that i am ok with ExH actions?

Have i implicitly condoned his behaviour by not doing my usual rant/rave/ "i'm right you are wrong" act?

Feeling better for typing my thoughts out however, and for feeling as if i am not going it all alone - and some of it is so crazy that only those in the know would ever believe.