For me to GAL and 180 in the best interest of D4, I'm moving back across the country in a week or so and am going to live with his family. Call me crazy, call me stupid...but we both agreed it's a good idea financially and for D4. For me, it'll be awkward...especially since he mentions bringing someone home in the future and it possibly being weird. Whatever. That's a while from now.
So, I feel good.
I'm not weak and I think he forgot that until today.
I'm proud of myself for not crying so much, for showing him my fierce side, my don't take no crap side...but I'm still reasonable, and still smart as hell.
He's going to live alone, and he needs that. I need to GAL and 180 in the sunshine, the warmth and happiness that I need to get myself back together.
I realized today, I gave up too much of myself to be this man's wife and I wasn't fulfilled by that and neither was he. Time to start over, move forward. Not for an R with anyone else, or an R with him right now, but an R with myself.
WHO AM I after all this time? What do I like? What do I want?
I'm going to figure this stuff out this year. I'm going to GAL.
