WW, My Addiction, Patience, and Hope - III

[trumpet]

Sandi, thanks for the words of wisdom.

I've almost completely stopped talking with W for any reason. I do get emails for appointments/kid stuff, but there is no texts, no phone calls from her - nothing. The D14 said last night, when I got home, that mom was crying when I was gone. Visited a friend from church, watched the UW Men's BB team on TV, and went home. Got home late tonight from work.

I'd rather just not care right now. I did pop on her laptop, and since I don't have any passwords, I just looked at her browser history. No OM Facebook contact, but looking up articles online that say '5 signs that your marriage is done' or something thereabouts.

She's struggling at best, and talking/texting OM at worst. I truly am happier without her around. Coming home in the last 2 weeks, if she isn't here - I'm happy. If she's here - I'm dreading it. I just have a yearning to see my kids, and be on my own now. The tear in our marriage is getting worse - the push apart more now than ever. I haven't cried in a week about anything. Just sad for her, and I get sad when I think about having to make the kids deal with this.