Divorce Papers

[TimR]

First I got no sleep last night. I had dreams about her and her friends talking to her and her insisting that she had to be with OM. I woke up on the verge of tears... again.

Then...

Come on, why do the kids have to suffer! It is one thing to take her moods out on me, but not the boys. Tonight I was doing good GALing. Since school wrestling for Jr. High is over, I got a full day in at work and then after club wrestling was over got a good work out in with my advanced judo class. Despite being off for the last two months the weight I lost has made me much faster and I was hitting throws well. It was nice and the concentration it takes to go live gave me an hour of not thinking about my sitch. Afterwards, I called my assistant coach and we discussed the progression of the wrestlers. I felt like driving by WW's house and even managed not to do it! (btw I think my ability to not drive by to see if she was home is a step in the right direction) Then BAM

I get a text from S. "I wish I could come live with you"
Me: Why
S: Cuz I love you more
Me: What's going on buddy

He then proceeded to tell me how she is always yelling at him and his brother. She was threatening to get rid of the dog because the boys were supposed to make sure the dog got out. And then surprise surprise they didn't. The dog went on the floor.

I know how she gets when she is angry she just can't stop her complaining. Now I feel so bad for the boys because instead of directing her anger at me, now the boys are the focus. I feel like I should save them by making an appearance and having her focus her anger on me but I know that will push her further from me. But really do they need to suffer??

Sometimes I think it would be easier and healthier for me to just walk away from the entire situation. Yes, I know years from now and the rest of my life I would regret it. But just give me one full good day... just one!