I Think it's Way Too Late

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Hi TimR,
actually she doesn't even bother to throw me crumbs or temp check.

I haven't been contacted at all by the assistant - I think that's all over to tell you the truth. There's almost no reason at this point for them to contact me. They have a new PC, changed the assistant's email address, so anything that would be deemed "my fault" has been taken out of the equation.

I think the W disconnected from me a long, long time ago. She's now doing damage in other ways.

Now, she's going after all the friends. She knows I haven't and wouldn't contact any of them. So, I'm the jerk who she needs to get away from.

One of the things that really gets me is that I was going to ask her old Real Estate coach and mentor if I could take classes from her. The W and her had a falling out a year ago (a lot of stuff happened a year ago). As a result, I stopped seeing her H and friend, who has Parkinson's.

So with them being separated, I figured I could ask to do the coaching (and pay of course). Now I find out that all of a sudden, the W got together with her and they've made up - and she's going to the class I was going to go to this Thursday.

Of course, the W knew I was getting my license, and in order to take myself to the next level would need these classes. Voila! Instant reunion.

I couldn't help myself - and did what I haven't done in weeks and checked her email. Sure enough, I'm a bad guy, she's doing what she needs to do to move forward - and "trying" to keep things out of the gutter. She eluded to a lot of other things that aren't happening - such as fighting over the dog. No, I haven't been allowed to see the dog, there's no fighting.

At this point I'm feeling like I've got to fight back. This is possibly effecting my livelihood.

The coach and her family are devout Mormons. I so feel like emailing her and telling her that the W has been in an affair for a year, the money you gave her to go to Italy helped her meet this guy over there, she never had any desire to work things out, I've been locked out of the house, not allowed to see my dog, and this woman even took pearls from my aged Mother for Christmas even as she had retained an attorney to file for divorce - even saying she was going to try to take my Mother's home!

Yeah, that would kill it. But you know what? I'm don't think there's any chance at all anyway. I'm tired of being a nice guy. I'm tired of being used and abused. And now, after all this they're back together - and I skipped a year with somebody I miss, who doesn't have much longer with a debilitating disease. All to stick up for a W who would shove a knife in my back "just because".

Man, it's confusing. But I'm starting to think I've really got nothing to lose at all. It's already lost. At the very least, I could make her half as uncomfortable as she's made me. Once she's at the real estate classes, everybody else I know is going to hear her side - which isn't even half truthful. At least if they know she's having an affair, they can make a more educated decision even if the still side with her. And, they probably will since she's going to be there and I'm not. She saw to that.