surrealism is not my style

[ciluzen]

So, after having a rather disappointing call from my mom where she wrote a note in a bday card to my H and giddily told me about it (totally not helpful to me but thought she was being so), H called.

He had just left his L's office. He kept apologizing and saying he didn't know why he was calling, just kept talking around things and talking about how we knew each other so well and were familiar, etc, etc. I asked if he felt anything else and he couldn't answer. I said "I get it...you don't care for me that way anymore" and he said he couldn't say that. I told him about how I had a good time this weekend and he said he did too. He just kept saying we were familiar with each other and comfortable. If he needed help with something, he knew he could count on me helping and "getting" him. We just know each other so well. He still says he doesn't know how to feel...or why he was calling. ugghhh.

So, I guess I just shrug this off and go to my divorce care meeting tonight. I didn't beg or lead. I'm sure I wasn't chipper. I did ask him why he did or said things. Why he didn't want to work on things. He really didn't know. He just seemed confused and worried about coming across as a b7st%rd (his word, not mine). At least I know when my mediation date is. He told me. My L has yet to let me know.