Still NC - Let's do the limbo pt2

[Sparkls]

I couldn't be that person even if I wanted to. And rationally I know I never would want to be, but when it hurts this much to be the good person, it's hard to not want to just give up. I'll always be the person who takes the high road and who can't help but caring about everyone (hell, I'm worried the OW is not addressing her massive codependency issues and the next time a bf leaves her, she's going to kill herself. She's not taking her Meds, not going to her C. My BF has become her whole world now. What happens when he does to her what he did to me.) I could make his world burn but that's not who I am. My friends all keep calling me a saint and have said if he did to them what he's done to me, he'd either have some significant bruising, be in jail, or be jobless and penniless. But that's not me. Yes, I have things to work on. But moral fiber and strength of character aren't them. Thank god for that at least.