1.) I still keep having this desire to tell my WW that I know more about her affair than she realizes. I need someone to explain to me why I really just shouldn't. Giving up my ace-in-the-hole. Simply making her more angry for snooping again. Making her simply lie and say more hateful stuff. Stop being a wuss of a man and realize my WW is a crummy spouse and I should want to be rid of her. Why do I still feel like I should be able to have some connection with her? Why do I keep hoping that she will 'snap out of it' and realize what she has done?
2.) On legal stuff. I went ahead and signed a new contract to get a 2 bedroom apartment. Have to provide 30 days notice to the complex, so in about 3 1/2 weeks. I really feel that for the kids, for me, and for my WW...that moving to a week by week rotation of the kids will be easier on everyone and better for all of us. Also, when/if this switch happens I want to make it so that I'm not driving the kids on her weeks...that needs to be her responsibility. But my WW simply is holding strong to her position that not only is she not going to agree to the week by week rotation...she still fully believes that the kids should be 100% with her. So...how hard do I push on this? I mean...I'm asking around and looking to see which lawyer I feel most comfortable with and get a good recommendation from some people I know. I'll get them to form a separation agreement proposal...but...what happens when she simply rejects it? Knowing her, I expect her to go to her lawyer and get one that says the exact opposite which I will never agree to. What then? Will I just be spending money on a lawyer to make us all more angry with no real resolution or positive coming from it? Should I simply allow things to continue as they have, and perhaps tell her I want to back away from driving the kids on her days? My friend says I shouldn't be afraid or avoid doing what I feel to be right, if I'm doing it for the right reasons..ie the kids. But...I just know that I can't trust my own thoughts these days. It is after all, my best thinking that got me into this situation to begin with.
Me:41 - LBH in apt W:39 - WW in home Kids:D(15), D(11), S(9) - custody % 58/42 M: 15 yrs - DoS: 10-11-15 (PA confirmed 2-12-16; WW dumped by AP 11-6-15; WW dated 7-8 men in Jan '16 via Match.com)
