Now what?/ One Day at a Time

[melweb]

I know there is not a lot of traffic over here on Piecing, but hoping for some insight/ideas nonetheless.

My sitch in a nutshell (in case you don't want to read my thread in Newcomers):
11/9/15 BD ILYBNILWY--H is leaving me after the holidays. I DB'd for two months, when H says he is not leaving (1/2/16) and I do not have to live in fear. No proof of EA or PA. Lots of R talks, date nights, sex, he thanks me for fighting for and saving marriage. We know we have lots of work to do. But we talk of future plans, and our hopes and goals for our M. January was awesome.

By Feb, I am starting to feel like he is pulling back. Said our marriage is questionable (he was drinking when he said this). I feel like an OSF might have been taken to a new level, as he guards his phone and is always on it. I still get plenty of "babes", "hons', and "sweethearts." I get "I love you" or "love you." Yesterday, I got coffee in bed

My feelings are all over the map, as is my imagination. And I just do not know what to say, when it sounds like he is changing his mind/fence sitting. So far I just nod and say "I understand." He wants "passion all the time, and wants to think of me even at work."

I know the road to reconciliation is not going to be an easy one, but I at least thought we were on the same highway. Now I am not so sure.

I have maintained my 180s, and I just got a job to help with my GAL, and joined a gym--which we have been going to together.

Any words of wisdom here would be much appreciated.