Thank you Zues for your input. The problem is, I don't want to give up on my M. And I've been working on my DBing/detaching consistently - which is why I am dark. I feel a bit confused here though b/c I see alot of ppl get encouragement not to give up on their M but I don't get that vibe on my end. I don't ever want to give up on my H or our M but of course I understand the need to detach, 180 and GAL the heck out of everything right now. But that's why I wonder if there are any users out there who's stories are similar to mine. I'm looking for something to grasp onto. I feel like you're asking me to completely forget about my H and our M.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
