Thank you mleigh, Gwen and kml for your kind words, thoughts and information.
Gwen - how are you ??
Originally Posted By: mleigh
I can relate with you, I too came here in hope of saving my marriage and have accepted this is no longer what my journey is about nor possibly, for me, no longer possible. I am speaking on behalf of my own feelings, not H.
mleigh - my view has certainly changed along the way. I no longer NEED my h, so the question is "do I WANT him". I never thought I would think this way, I imagined that I would wait until my last day on earth for him, that I forgive anything he has done and said, as that is what you do when you love someone ......yet somewhere along the way I found myself questioning my convictions, I wonder if there is more out there for me, I wonder if he really deserves me.
I was approached recently by a g/friend asking me if I would be a part of an exciting project she is exploring. She wants to create a retreat for women, its about healing the mind, body and soul from whatever reason has lead them there. She wants me to be a part of her Dream Team to run it. I am so flattered she asked me. It has sat with me for a while; what an exciting project, it offers me a home, friendship and a new way of life. BUT - its in the UK, the other side of the world to my children and yes, also h.
Once upon not a long time ago I would have discounted the notion of this idea, but now h and this project jossle for top spot -
So I do understand what you are saying - life moves on and the further away from h it gets then harder it is to imagine a life with him again.
Kml - thank you for the information. I was told that after 2yrs post a RI treatment its unlikely I would become hypothyroid, so to have differing information helps. One of my nodules has suspicious markers, but after 3 failed attempts to get a viable biopsy sample I was discharged and told to come back if I had any more trouble. My Dr wants a second blood test to confirm my levels which will be done end of march to give sufficient time between the tests. If this one comes back high then I will be referred back to the specialist. Hopefully I will then be put on meds and get another scan.
Your information on celiac disease and gluten intolerance is interesting, I have not heard of this before so will research it. I know there are allergy tests that can be done - is that something you recommend or just trying a gluten free diet?
