surrealism is not my style

[ciluzen]

It will happen, Nel. You will get to this stage. I'm still wobbly, though. Just try hard to picture yourself happy. What will it take and how will you make it happen? Instead of drowning in the sadness of being alone, picture it as a vacation alone to do anything you want. Then think of what you could see yourself achieving with no distractions. Focus on yourself in that way. Just change the way you look at being without H.

Just got ANOTHER unexpected call from H. Once again, about nothing,really. But quite nice to talk about nothing.

Partway through the call he told me that he just came back from our vacation home. He had stopped by after skiing to clean it up for our friends who were using it this week for their anniversary "get away". I asked if he had gotten them flowers (he loves to put fresh flowers out) and he had. He then told me he put on the card that they were from both of us. THAT surprised me. The "us" part. I told him how sweet that was and that I thought that was such a nice thing to do. Really, it was.

Good talk. No expectations.