Not sure where to stand

[Sparkls]

I really appreciate that. I'm definitely not to the self forgiveness step yet. I waffle between thinking it's all my fault (I know I haven't been the best partner lately) and thinking if he had just told me what was going on, we could've fixed it, and that's all on him. The truth is somewhere in the middle entangled with a 3rd party who did nothing but tell him how awful I was and how he should just leave. Surround yourself with people who are in terrible relationships and suddenly your relationship starts to look even worse than it may really be. Just a mix of emotions: frustration, anger, guilt, fear, pain. etc. Preaching to the choir I know.