Last game of the season and it's over. I went alone, sat with various friends and right behind W at one pint since that's where my friends were. Awkward. She left for a while and I thought I saw her with ow leaning in close and intimate. I began trembling. Then I could see it wasn't them and the relief was overwhelming.

I moved down to the floor and acted as if I was having a great time cheering the team on to victory. Smiling, clapping, laughing w a friend, all the while dying inside. Games for 22 years and now I don't know if I'll ever go to another one. Please remind me this is the right thing to do. To do nothing. To try and have fun and lmove away from her? Like MB has asked so often isn't there anything else we can do? Know that there are no more games and less likely to see her, and I'm afraid she'll forget me. Im afraid she'll move forward with ow. But I must say I thought her eyes look sad. I like to think I still know her better than anyone else. I want to believe we're not done, I need some encouragement.

Do you want to go places where I think she'll be, having a great time, I want her to see me having a great time. I want her to see me moving on. I want her to be jealous instead of just me being jealous. Does this really work if I don't even see her?

11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker
Reconciling since late April 2016
Don't give up until it's time, then move on
Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat