I could've written your post about my situation. I definitely put my kids ahead of my marriage, too. We all make mistakes. While I regret my mistakes (like you do), we really weren't given a fighting chance to fix them by our WAH. You should hold your head up high knowing that you did everything you could to save your marriage and your family.
I still have hope but my H has filed for D, purchased a home and still in affair fog. So, I hope you keep posting about your journey. I think I am going to be following in your footsteps right behind you.
((Rourky)) Your post is filled with strength - thinking of you
M 44 H 46 M 20yrs T 25 yrs S15 S12
ILYBINILWY 7/18/15 Move to MBR 9/8/15 Physical Separation 10/10/15 Suspect A 8/2015 Confirm A 12/27/15 D filed by H 2/2/16