Rednail: OW confirmed..going dark

[Sparkls]

We're both having rough days it would seem. Had a dream about H last night and woke up missing him so much it hurts, but I have to keep reminding myself that Im missing someone that doesn't exist right now.
There's a reason only like 3% of affairs last. The OW is the kind of person who would sleep with a married man (and in my case would do it while his W is taking care of a dying mom). That's not the kind of women that keep men. And likewise, he's now be kind of guy who cheats and hides it so she is always subconsciously going to be worried that if he did it to you, he'll do it to her.

And all of this does absolutely nothing to make you feel better. The only thing that does is to get through it. I just spent half an hour in a scolding hot shower crying. And I'm still sad but I'm a little bit better, missing him a little bit less, reminding myself that he has turned into his biggest fear (his father) and that someday that is going to crush him and I likely won't be there when it does and that's his fault, not mine.