Thanks for asking. Still sick, but slowly getting better.
I am really wondering about what direction husband and my conversation will go in.
He might say he wants to proceed with divorce. If that's the case, I will tell myself that I can just move on and get my life moving forward in that direction. I will have to mourn. Deal with all the legal issues. Then I would have to tell people at work. Get some type of counseling for kids. I will exercise like a mad woman, and eventually start dating.I will be very embarassed to tell people at work. I just don't want to be pitied. (I had a few losses and health issues past few years). Once I figure out legal issues, I can make a game plan. Join a divorce group. At least I will know and put myself in a certain mindset.
There is a good possibility that this is what will happen, as husband has not made much of an effort regarding reconciliation. If he wanted to reconcile. If he truly did, he would call me and talk to me. Arrange dates with me. Request counseling. He has made no effort. His job is more important to him. He went over 2 weeks without seeing kids.
If husband wants to reconcile, then we will have to figure out way to reconnect. I will listen and validate. Come up with plans for counseling and Retrovaille. Take things very slow. I do not want either of us to make or succumb to demands.
I am really hoping that husband does not continue to evade the decision.
I always have a choice though so I am not powerless.
