Yes brooke! Before the A was confirmed even a few days ago he calls to ask about netflix shows, what to do with kids, if I'm home safe(if I went out), if I had fun out, what the kids should have for lunch, random all the time things! All the time..some days bug me at 1-2 am to check on me if I was out. I tried being distant but I never was TOO distant.
Tmi but even with his affair when he is here he walks around with like b*ner half the time( i can see it) and I know he wants me. Ive had to ask him not to smack my butt, brush my cheek, kiss me..and now it disgusts me that he did this while having an A.
The day before I confirmed the A he was extra flirty and sweet and I think it was the day we had accident like heat of the moment sex since I caved. It was hot, kissing, loving, really good sex too which makes it hurt even more.
I regret it so bad now. So bad. I mean I regretted it then but knowing about the A makes me feel worse. He literally was cake eating us both. Cheating on us both.
I think that is why I'm having a hard time digesting. That he got me to cave and got what he wanted and then I found out.
Thornton I def. am pulling back on myself. I know I have to respond about the kids but I never know how much if too much.
I will figure it out.
Honestly do not know what I wouls do without you guys.
My moms lecturing me on getting a divorce now and I'm just hiding in my bathroom crying because I just want her to shut it and hug me.
