No need to worry and vent as much as you want. Regarding being nice with H, don't do it to get him back, do it because it makes you feel good! Because you are feeling at peace when you do it.
If it likes my kids, sometimes I have to toss the coin 3 times for everyone to be happy! I fully understand your limbo, you have to do what feels right for you, if it's going against DB rules then so be it. We are all human and we are entitle to make mistakes!
What are your plans for tomorrow? I have been to a health shop and I was advice to take some fish oil, vitamins D to help deal with my situation. I have been using them for the last 2 weeks and I feel no more different than if I was on AD!
There is no shame in getting help from natural medicines.
As I said our situation is very similar, I'm a bit ahead of you and I'm feeling better. Please focus on you, start to enjoy every little thing everyday. Today was the bird tweeting, even if it was early than I wanted to be I loved it. Wishing I was closer to you, so I'd be able to help you more. (((((((((( hugs IP))))))))
