I just love you.( I do in a long distance penpal older sister type love.) You make me cry. You make me feel better.
Yes I can fight for the house or come up with an agreement or try to make a deal of instead of maybe 1200$ child support you give me 800$ and let me live at the house for 2 years to get on my feet. Lots of options to try to keep the house.
Maybe I need a trip to family court just for the info side of things.
I found out as long as my kids are in college my divorce can have he has to support the kids until they are 26 now. If they stop college or do not go it is 18.
I already have my L I will use. He is a fierce papa bear with a daughter my age with grandbabies. He said he feels like I could be his daughter and his wife if the receptionist and so nice to me. They give me tons of free advice and talk to me when I need to talk to them. When I'm ready to start the D process I can give him the $ and we will go from there but until then he is answering any calls or questions for free to help me.
I am a mess. I look like death. I want to throw up. I tried eating toast and almost gagged. I just am a mess.
I was hoping to wake up and be 100% better but this pain hurts worse then when he left.
NO OW TALK EVER?! Not even to ask if she is near my kids. If she is going to show up at family eventsm if i have to see her?Nothing?!? UGH I NEED TO PREPARE NOW.
We have a wedding AT his parents gorgeous house for his cousin and I'm suppose to be helping it. IT IS IN APRIL. Do I even go now? Would he even dare to bring her to family things? His parents know and love her as my bff shes been to many family events with us. Bdays etx.
My L said in Florida it is best if I try to get a job. He said some judges look down on stay at home moms who DO NOT get a job after being left and see them as lazy and not doing what needs to be done for the kids.Plus it shows I'm trying my best to be on my own.
I am going to start going to church with the kids every sunday with the kids.
I am trying to be patient with myself. I am trying to do what is best for me and my baby cubs.
I am trying my best to get most the pain out today. I really want most of this hurt gone.
I will not rush and go file on mondag even though my head is telling me to just to prove a point.
Right now I can never see myself being happy with him being with her..but I know I will be.
Am I even allowed to ask if they are still together or over? ANYTHING?! I guess it doesnt matter since he has lied to my face for months and had me 100% convinced he was telling the truth.
