Easy to explain sandi2 - fear. That's what I'm trying to explain to Ghost. Between BD (Easter Sunday) and about the start of September, I think I was petrified that my life would be so shite, that I wouldn't see my kids and my W would move 230 miles away, I was motionless. Chats with NDY, RD, Sotto, Azzork, Wonka and yourself made me reappraise the work I'd done and I realised I had to make a better stab at it.
Yeah, I still miss W, but I'm no longer stressed out and I have my kids with me right now. W is no longer as hostile and who knows what might happen. That's the thing, until you actually release yourself from the fear, you spin - it's that simple.
Ghost - get out; even if you're just going to sleep in a bedsit, you will find some peace and be able to do proper work on yourself.
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015