I finally got my tooth fixed, my dentist is the bets and met me in the office and did a root canal on me. I think the ED doc thought I was a drug seeker, but I was on the verge of hitting myself in the head with a baseball bat to make the pain go away. He did give me one dose of do lauded which sort of helped and held me over until I saw the dentist.
Bets, you are right, I have to go back to Db and the whole distanced/pursuer thing. Sometimes it feels like games I need to play so I try to avoid it, but this time I distanced. He did not contact me yesterday at all, was very distant the day before, but I got an idea from a little birdie what was going on. And I had mentioned I won't tolerate this a second time. I have not reached out to me. I will not either, until later today, to tell him this isn't acceptable. I had a nice convo with a friend where we discussed my worth . I'm a huge fiver in relationships, but I seem to pair up with takers. This one isn't vicious about it. He really is just so confused. It's a long story I'm not going to post on here.
What it comes down to is that I truly do love him. But I did learn from DB and from life, I have to love and respect myself first. I deserve to be treated a certain way. I give a lot in every relationship I'm in, not only my romantic ones. And if he's not in a place to give, that's fine, I understand, I just want some honesty. I'm not a person who someone should take from until sow thing better comes along, or they have no more to take from me.
I do hope this works out without me having to sacrifice my respect for needs. But what will be, will be.
In the meantime I have a 5:15 MRI appt because there is a lipoma on my spine, and then out with some friends. I took off school for 2 weeks and it's been nice not dedicating my free time to that.
