Rednail: OW confirmed..going dark

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Rednail,

You should be struggling and feeling broken and empty inside. Your world has just exploded. The person (actually 2 people!) you trusted most in the world betrayed you in the worst way possible. If you could just go on today you wouldn't have any feelings. It's going to take you some time to process it. The hardest part will be putting on a brave face to take care of your children when you need to take care of yourself too. When I found out about my H's affair I didn't have my sons so I was able to fall apart for 24 hours. I couldn't sleep or eat. I tried to take a shower and laid on the bathroom floor sobbing until a friend came over to sit with me. Can you get help with your kiddos today so you can be gentle with yourself? Grandparents? You really do need to cry this episode out and get angry. There's no way around this pain you have to go through it. Unfortunately. It will be surreal and you will feel like you are in the twilight zone. I really recommend exercise because it will get you some endorphins and make you exhausted. I know it sounds impossible but maybe even a walk. Please keep us posted on how you are doing. I know how you feel. I wish you didn't have to experience it but I promise you that YOU will find strength you never knew you had because of your kids. It won't be easy but please try to find a way to take care of you today so you can grieve because it's a death of the relationship you thought you had with your H. No matter what happens that relationship has died. Thinking of you...