The start of my happiness 4

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I just think about the good times we had. All the happiness and the forever bs. And on top of that I think of her and OM. How that happiness was mine. What if they do last?

Also I find myself concerned with the financial discussion we need to have and the inevitable anger I will receive, I still don't like her getting angry with me. It feels like it gives her a reason to run to A.

To top it off this cat is driving me nuts again. She was normal for a bit...

I feel this way too. The betrayal is so painful. To trust someone so completely and have them just walk away from you like you mean nothing to them. It's devastating and sometimes feels like there is never going to be an end to all the pain and loneliness. We just have to believe that eventually we will work through it all and be better when we come out on the other side. They will still be the same as they are now, still looking for something but unsure of what and how to find it....but, we will be stronger and better. Just hold onto that and know that you're not just trying to survive, but you're actually working towards something and in the end, it will be worth it.

As for the cat, you're lonely and so is the cat. Sit on the couch and let that kitty kitty curl up beside you and PET IT! It will make her happy and you might come to find out that you love the cat. If she's being annoying because she's in heat, get her fixed! It doesn't cost that much and it will fix the problem. What's the cat's name?