Rednail: OW confirmed..going dark

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Pink,.
I'm trying. I had a girlfriend come until midnight. We just threw away 8 garabage bags of stuff from my house.

We removed everything of us and put it in my car, I cleared out so much of my stuff in my laundry room.

I hung up more photos of just me and the kids.

She made me eat, get off the floor, and as she said..man up already and do something theraputic to help me.

Threw away the sheet set I know she slept in, she brought me new pillows and I tossed out my old ones.

I am now laying here debating on my life and what to do. It is 1:20 am and I have no idea what I want to do. What I will do.

I feel broken and dead inside.

I have never felt like this before, just..empty.

Worst part was he lied to me face all morning about it before he confessed. He hugged me and said he would never hurt me or do that.

He told me over the phone then showed up at the house when I would not answer.

He wanted to talk but I refused and had a fit until he left.

I feel like we have nothing to talk about.