Not sure where to stand

[Sparkls]

By nature I'm not a spiteful person, it doesn't come naturally and I've always been kind to the point of self detriment. I'm not going to let him being an ass change that about me, so he'll get his TV. I just struggle with when to do what instinct tells me and when to do the "180", since my instincts have gotten me somewhere I don't want to be.