Ciluzen, I think it's interesting that you run into him on the weekends too. This entire time, I haven't run into my H at all. And I haven't run into his friends either. And we all live in the same area and like the same things. But I've also been keeping to myself and not doing those things b/c the memories hurt too much so that may also be why I don't run into ppl.
And to your point broke, if I run my calculations based on the timeline, H has been working and hanging out with OW for well over 1 year now. He's started and stopped and started again. Thats what makes me think maybe it's not a fog. I also find it weird b/c during his "stop", he even admitted that whatever they had was started out of sadness, loneliness, depression, anger, etc. But yet, he keeps going back. And I wonder if he's integrating her into his life. And if our friends are keeping it from me and protecting him b/b I know absolutely nothing. Like I said, ppl are acting as if I never even existed and this is all just fine. Feel like I'm in the twilight zone, still.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
