Sometimes, when we are hurting we don't look at the logic of it all as the pain is so great.
Circling back to your struggle with the fact that he is choosing a dysfunctional relationship with a dysfunctional woman. It's a relationship built on lies and deception. Think about that. Just reminding you that his choices reflect much about him and not you.
He can't possibly meet your emotional needs right now nor can he do so for any "whole" woman. He's going to seek out broken women and broken down women will seek him out. There's nothing wholesome about this.
No healthy, "whole" woman would be attracted to who he is today. Because you have little contact you may be remembering who he was and think he is that person. As a person who has contact with my MLCer, let me reassure you that he is a shell of himself. His decisions back that up.
He is lost. These are the choices lost people make. They are two weak people clinging to dysfunction. It's not romantic. It's sad.
He is not the person you knew. I am telling you, it is in my face each and every day. I promise you, these are splinters of people.
Me 41, H 47, M 15 yrs, S11, S13 BD 1: 11/4/14 we work on it; really I pretzel myself BD 2: 3/31/15 H goes down to "dorm room" 8/15: H back to MBR 10/15: H back in dorm room 1/18: H files, now divorced
