Quote: Why do we do such stupid things that we know will set us back?
Because we're human, we make mistakes. But what makes us better, the way to grow, is when we pick ourselves up, and try again realizing we won't make the same mistakes again because we've learned from them. I know you're strong enough to do it.
But first you need to take care of yourself. See your doctor. In the three months following the bomb I lost over 30 lbs. I had to force myself to eat. Don't go without sustenance. For the sleeping, Tyenol makes a nonprescription sleep aid available at any drug store, it works very well, ask your pharmacist if you can't find it. It is safe and not addictive.