I really cant offer anything that Vapo didnt cover.

The only thing i see here is you are just not accepting this.

You need to get the letter, ignoring it helps nothing.

I am not saying that somewhere down the road things may not work out for you, but i think you need to face what is reality right now.

I read about the stockdale paradox a lot and helps. I think you need this

M 37
W 34

T 12
M 8
D 7
S 4

Need break 4/12/15
W no ring 7/7/15

Separate room 4/12/15
Separate living suggested 8/15
W moved out 11/1/15