Not sure where to stand

[Sparkls]

We are currently seperated so clearing browser history isn't really an issue.

Didn't respond to his text at all. Trying the whole NC thing. Every day I get a little bit better at the being alone thing. When the weather's nice, it's actually quite lovely to go out and walk my dogs (something the bf always did) and when I can be busy with school, time goes by quicker. Slowly my heart is getting on board with my brain knowing that I'll be just fine without him around, and maybe even better. But I still miss him. And I don't miss the things he did for me, I miss him as a person. I miss talking to him (I had a dream about us just talking about new video games that are coming out and how my day was at school etc). And I can't help but feeling like he must be having the time of his life. Living without any of the responsibilities he had here.
My father, being the awesome man he is, came out to spend a few days with me and reassured me that he will miss his life eventually. Compared it to a vacation, it can be pleasant for a while but at some point you just want to go home.

Also haven't been able to bring myself to sleep in our bed. No affair related things happened there (or so he told me, confined it to our guest bed, how considerate) but its a big bed and I don't want to sleep in it alone.

Sigh. One day at a time.