They actually sound like good things to get started on. It may help throw a curve on him that you are done fighting for the M as well and could reflect positively on how you want things to be different.
It's part of the rollercoaster ride. You can do this. Don't think of the calls as necessarily a bad thing (I know easier said than done) but more of a learning tool so that you can learn to "listen" to H w/new perspective.
What is his LL? physical touch? If so, you're doing a good thing keeping that strong. Find other ways to show him love in his language that might help.
I know it's tough, believe me but if you do nothing else during this time, learn to take care of YOU and what you need in the future. Live for yourself right now and see things fall into place.
When I got real down, I reflected on something I heard in a sermon, maybe it can help you....when you're down and out, everything seems to go wrong. Learn to start the day w/a good outlook and see how well things start to turn around. Remember it starts w/you.
To me this means that if you start low, nothing will seem right that day. So, when you start high, things are seen in a different light. For example, you may be sad coz your H calls you to say that he isn't coming over that day as planned (so you take it negatively); but (as a positive) at least he CALLED to tell you this instead of not showing up. (see how the sit can be viewed as either negative or positive?) Good luck. Remember, you set the tone for your day.
