And I'm pretty nice really - not perfect by any means, but pretty nice, and ....oh well, this isn't really going anywhere is it - just self pity...
Anyway - a bit of a low day. This week has been busy, I have a sore throat and think I got a bit overtired. Hopefully things will look up in a few days.
Take care all & thanks for reading xx
Hey sotto, you are not pretty nice...you are a awesome. Youre caring, loving, amazing soul who i look forward to seeing your deep and heartfelt posts every day.
Please do not judge yourself based on one mans skewed actions. This is not easy as we put so much weight and faith into just that. They (our spouses) are messed up right now and we cant help that. They are messed up because they need to justify not being able to look at themselves...no instead they thrash and destroy all that is around them...to prove something to themselves. Because he loves you, he cannot be close to you. He just cannot see any of that right now, i believe he will some day.
Instead of accepting your love and that they are lovable (which they cannot do) they run...huh??? Alien mind, right?
No, you are worth so much more than what his scatter brained actions are twlling you.
It is just messed up. I believe the affairs are just so they can feel normal if just in a sense that they dont feel the pain of being truely close, even for just a short while. That deep connection that we are all missing with out ex's and waw spouses is precisely what they cannot handle. Think about that for a second.
I dont know what it is in your h's past that is causing this rift, but there is something and he must find his way through on his own.
I wish your you, there was an easier way. From what ive seen of your posts, and theough the rhetoric of posting ro others, you are on the right path.
