Scrant, I've tried meditating but I cried. The tears built up behind my eyes and when I opened them it was like a raging river. Maybe a 45 min meditation was too long for a newbie. But that and mindfulness are great ideas.
Needgrace, thank you for finding me! I'm sorry you and W divorced and I hope you've found someone who makes you happy. Thank you for the suggestions. I need to do those notes, definitely. The doc gave me an anti-depressant. I don't like to take meds, but I am. I never have before and, ironically, when I first met W one of her deal breakers was depression. LOL I never was this depressed until now!
Wonka, my love, I'm always humbled when you visit. Also great suggestions. Which gal is it? The hot Italian who won't give you the time of day?
Painter, I always love to hear from you, too. I'm going to keep hot coffee nearby at all times. I promise I won't throw it on ow or W, although I have had that fantasy. I scream and rage against the world and humanity almost every time I'm in my car, which is not every day. It's the only place I have privacy. That and on my bike. I love shouting every foul word I can think of to release the anger - mostly at o effing w. Someone told me to add the word munger to my repertoire. I haven't looked it up yet. Hmmm...
Wonka. The last home games are this weekend and the hot, sexy Columbian woman is coming to the game with me Friday night. No time to buy a new outfit, but I've lost so much weight everything looks new on me.
Also, I saw W today at a presentation. We did make eye contact at the end and she looked kind of sheepish and tried to catch my eye. I quickly left with a friend to have lunch at the student union. Guess who walked by? W. Made eye contact and we both smiled. She was alone and I was with a friend. Phew.
This was interesting. I ran into a mutual friend who now works with W. She commented that she is aware that W is really struggling, said every R has its ups and downs and that W should never have let ow in, and said to me, " I know you are really good for W. Ow won't be a long termer." I hope she's right.
Thanks again everyone.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
