Inevitable always happens

[keefa]

Thanks thornton,
Its simply because of the length of time it takes to obtain a consent order and the fact that she has a very unreasonable L who is hell bent on causing as much difficulty as possible without seeing the bigger picture. I also think that because ex was embarrassed at the school meeting and the fact I had such a great weekend with my boys has added to her determination to try and hurt me as much as possible. I've said this before, it is almost like she came home and caught me in bed with the milkman or something. I have spoken at length about Psychological projection and it certainly fits but this is done purely out of personal interest and my own growth. It is fascinating though !
I am lying low but continue to fight the bigger fight without resorting to the little petty squabbles. Its hard not to want to score points but at the end of the day, I want the judge to see a reasonable man, mature enough to let the crap slide but who continues to fight for a fair solution. this ironically is itself me GAL and being the man I want to be. My own projection. I have grown exponentially these last few weeks. Today, i stopped and helped an elderly gent down the stairs of the bank. Nothing unusual there as I would have always have done this. But today, I stopped for a minute, made sure he was ok, asked him if he needed anything, had a brief chat and a chuckle and received a genuine heartfelt smile. Despite the fight inside me, this made me feel good and gave me a little reassurance I am on the right path to being the me I want to be. I keep telling myself, my now is not my forever.