Thank you Shotgun. Was lovely to see my family. I'm concerned about my dad as he looked very tired. Hopefully everything will work out in the end! Didn't get much of GAL as going out, on the other hand saw a lot of my family, so I see it as GAL.
STBXH sent me a text to wish me a safe journey when I left at the beginning of the week, and for some reason I got it today! Still validated. We had a quick exchanges of texts about the house. He isn't happy as our buyer wants to move in July and STBXH can't wait that long as I discovered that he bought a house! I told him that it was me who initially mentioned that month as the house I wanted to buy wasn't ready. Now it has been sold, so no point. STBXH is really annoyed, unfortunately I couldn't care less. Me too I'll be losing the house I have bought! So such is life!
Found out that he only took a day off and the rest of the time kids were looked after by family members! Also had an interesting conversation with step daughter. She told me that STBXH had told her that he was gone because of OW, I did put the truth right that he was seeing her for 2 years before I found out. I also found out that he blamed it in me (nothing new there!). She also told me that she met OW and said she wasn't nice! Step daughter said that she was thinking low of her dad, after finding out about his A she thought even lower of him! She told me that her dad said that he had no intention of buying a house with her, that he didn't like her kids and he didn't want to bring them up as his own. I also found out that he has bought a house which is not even in the same town as OW!
His daughter hadn't that his A won't last and he has no intention to introduce OW to my kids! It was very nice to have that conversation with her as I hadn't seen her for a year. On the other hand, don't believe what they say. TBH it was nice to hear what she said, and at the same time I hugely didn't care about what he did/ said!
I have share in this situation, as of now I have reached the one year BD I can see I'm doing good. Not overly happy, mainly not a constant feeling of sadness! More and more happy days, still a little twist in my heart when I think about my situation, mostly I acknowledge it and carry on with my life. Recently I have this wondering question in my mind: do I still love STBXH? I'm fond of him for sure although after all that happened and one year on I see real growth and strength in me. STBXH is far gone and I can't see any R.
I apologise if there are mistyping as I'm on my phone.
